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i just realized i hadn't posted in over a year. i do read it here regularly's a tough holiday. miss my family so much. lost my kitty. getting another one (rescued, yay). the weight loss was at a standstill for quite awhile. revamped things and hopefully it will continue. went vegan and then now am "mostly" vegan=) i am eating some eggs and cheese. but no cow's milk or yogurt. letting my hair grow long, much to my husband jeremy's joy! i want options. honestly, i post this stuff on my blog and that's why i never post on here. but i'm still here! going back to portland in three semesters. sighhhhhhhhhhhhh. listening to maia vidal, highly recommend. new business in the works, sewing samples now for my model. will let all know when it is open. i'm excited! be well! xoxox

fun times

well it's summer and it's SO HOT here! i stay indoors most of the time. i've lost almost 40 pounds now. lot's of my clothes don't fit now, and i can wear stuff i bought smaller to save. i think i am finally seeing an improvement in my energy level, just a little. i had been sick for almost 3 months. i had bronchitis and then i found out, after trying everything and the kitchen sink, that i had allergies. i finally feel so much better. i also have had a battle with psych meds, too expensive and being without them and being IN THE BELL JAR. i just flipped out. i'm back on one of them now, we just had to bite the bullet and buy them. i'll be back on insurance in august. being really homesick lately. i dyed my hair blue, and someone told me today that i was really brave to have that in alabama. ha. i miss portland where i don't stand out at all. business is slow right now. i lowered my prices and wonder if i should have. i sell myself short, i think. i just thought it would help business, but it hasn't. i know i need live models but i can't find any here. i think they would sell so much better that way. all for now.


just dyed my hair purple. now i'm wanting navy blue! i'm having so much fun with it. i discovered a website called Advanced Style, which shows the coolest older people with tons of style. many of them are artists. one in particular named debra, has white hair with some pink in it and is an artist and stylist. she is in her sixties. i am very inspired to have fun and enjoy myself in my older years. through buddhism, wicca, and doing the artist's way for the second time, i am making a shift from younger to older finally. i am embracing my age. i have had a hard time with it since i tu rned 50, which was why i made my first zine then. but now i am accepting my age and loving it.
this saturday i am going to oregon, going home. i will only have a very short visit in portland, then i'm on to roseburg to be with both of my kids and my grandkids. i haven't been with all of them together in about three years. i'll also get to see my mom, who is in a nursing home. i can't wait to see my babies. they are so big now. it will be so good to breathe oregon air and feel portland. i miss it so so much. only a year and a half left and we will be back.
lastly, i've lost 20 pounds!
i hope all of you have a great day!

it's been two months

since i started weight watchers. i've lost twelve and a half pounds, it's working. had a sketchy start there, but they adjusted my points and voila, weight loss. i am looking forward to being able to cross my legs again. i am looking forward to being able to walk up and down stairs without it killing me. i am looking forward to being able to walk, period. i am looking forward to being better able to fit into an airplane seat. i am looking forward to having more energy. i am looking forward to less strain on my injured knees. i am also happy that my inlaws are not going to sell their house in this economy. i was looking at living in the boonies, without being able to go to swim class or see the friends i have made here. so hooray! wonderful news. i have a new friend from ww. she is smart. the kind of smart that makes me just nod a lot in conversations because i feel like i have nothing to contribute. but i think the next time we meet i will just say what comes to mind, instead of just sitting there feeling like an idiot. i have lost the ability to engage in certain conversations and i'm trying to improve that. like politics. i can't discuss politics. i don't know enough, and i envy those who do. i'm not really down on myself right now, just noticing things. i'm actuallyl doing well. my family, well my son and his family are going thru something very hard righ tnow, so anyone who wants to send up some positive vibrations would be so appreciated. i'm doing well, i'm doing well.